Trying to use my time sewingly which I hope is wisely.

Honestly, I have enjoyed having some time off.  I have gotten a lot of sewing done.  I have organized my fabrics as well, and done a little house cleaning. (probably should be doing more of that).  However, I feel like I need to work full time or at least continue looking.  I have applied for a couple of more jobs.  One here and a couple in Atlanta.  Also, I'm finally praying that God's will would be done, and not just begging Him for what I want.  Why am I so stubborn?